Okay, so it's likely no surprise to anyone reading my blog that I'm having a struggle with myself and this blog. I post 1-4 times per month, when I used to post much more frequently. I think I am struggling with what I've heard from a lot of my blogger friends who are parenting after IF... I'm just not sure where I fit in. I absolutely still relate to IF bloggers, but now also relate to other types of bloggers. For awhile, I brushed my not-sure-where-I-fit thoughts aside, thinking, even though I started this blog when I was focused on one thing - conceiving - I knew that I would continue if we were ever fortunate enough to have children.
Take the title of my blog: The Journey to a Little One to Call Our Own. I picked this title very deliberately when I started by blog 3 years ago. I wanted to document the journey Mr. D and I would take as we attempted to have a child/children. I remember thinking, "Gosh, if I am fortunate enough to have a baby, does this title still work?" For me, the answer was yes.
So, while I've been thinking about what's next for my blog, I read a post yesterday from a fellow blogger I've been following for at least a year. I just removed her blog from my list of blogs I follow because, frankly, of how upset it made me. I commented on her blog several times - during the time I've followed her, she's been through IUIs, IVFs, a miscarriage, and is now expecting her first child. I don't recall her ever commenting on my blog, which is absolutely fine. I don't follow blogs only if they follow me... I always enjoyed her writing style, and I truly, truly was interested in supporting her journey - through all the ups and downs.
She posted something to the effect of feeling betrayed by commenters on her blog if they were in a different place than she was. She mentioned that when she was TTC, she didn't like getting comments on her blog from people who were pregnant or parenting... even if the comment was nice (which, she acknowledged that the comments were very kind).
It kind of pissed me off, and I'm not entirely sure why. This community is so diverse with different people dealing with all different struggles - some have achieved what they set out for, and some have not. And some have picked up additional struggles along the way that they didn't foresee when they started blogging. We're all here for the support of whomever is interested in following along.
I feel that I still belong here in the community, but this blogger really made me question HOW I fit. I certainly don't want to be making anyone feel badly about when I reach out to support them... but, even as I type that, I question it. I mean, does it even matter where support comes from if you open yourself up on a blog that is available for all to see?
I don't know... I don't like having to define where, how, and why my blog fits in. I guess I don't fit in into a specific, certain place.
I'm not sure where I am going with all of this babbling. I think I just needed to get my feelings out there.
For now, this blog is my home, wherever it fits.