I can't quite believe it. You know, actually, yes, I can. I just had this feeling all week... I knew I was pregnant. I could feel it. I've been having some symptoms (I'll save for another post), and just "felt" pregnant. But, as much as I thought I was pregnant, seeing a positive test still can put a girl into shock.
I woke up at 7:00 a.m., and pondered taking a test. Who was I kidding... I knew I would test. So I walked into our master bath, took out a cheapy test (I had this all planned out - if the cheap one showed negative, I would take another, better one anyway to "prove" it). I peed in a cup, dipped the stick, and waited. After two minutes of washing my face, I glanced down and saw the dark control line. My initial thought was, "Crap. Negative," but my sleepy eyes did a double-take. Another beautiful, lighter pink line was present, too.
I quickly dipped a FR.ER, and within seconds... the same result. Pregnant, but a fairly light test line.
So, ladies, I decided to go big or go home. I busted out the CB Digital, and literally, within 15 seconds, the most beautiful word was staring me back in the face.
I grabbed the digital and hopped back into bed with Mr. D. He rolled over and said, "Good Morning," with his eyes still closed.
"LOOK AT THIS!" I said, much more loudly.
He grabbed the test, stared at it, looked at me, looked back at the test, looked at me again, and said, "Is this thing for real?"
I guess that's what I get for shoving a positive HPT in his face at 7 a.m. on a weekend when we are supposed to be sleeping in.
I am so incredibly happy and know that this is just step one of many, many, many hurdles and milestones to reach. I can't help but reflect on my miscarriage - how excited we were to receive the positive result, not thinking that it could all be taken away. For now, all I can do is be excited and patient as I take care of this little bean. Please continue to be sticky, little one!
If you know me IRL, please keep this secret... we are not going to be telling ANYONE in our lives anytime soon. Thank you for respecting us :)
Thanks to everyone for your well-wishes this week!