The Journey to a Little One to Call Our Own

One gal's experiences dealing with IF, pregnancy, the birth of our first son, parenthood, and doing it all over again with our second son... here is our journey.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

The Rollercoaster Ride, Round 2

Clomid worked, and I'm ovulating.  We all know what this means... timed BD sessions, bloodwork in a couple days, watching for symptoms, driving myself crazy wondering if I am pregnant, and praying for a miracle.

It's so weird this time around.  Before I was pregnant with Max, I was on a monthly rollercoaster ride... waiting, testing, BDing, getting hopes up, peeing on HPTs, and sadly welcoming AF each month.  This time is so incredibly different.

I HAVE a miracle.  My little Max is the best gift, and because I conceived, carried, and gave birth to a live child, I know my body can do it.  But that doesn't mean it will be an easier road to get there the second time.  I pray that it works - quickly - but who knows?  Maybe it will take a month, maybe years.  

On one hand, I remind myself that I am so incredibly, incredibly lucky.  If this month doesn't work out, I still have my miracle, and I am blessed.  And we have many, many more months to try again.  But I want one more sooner than later... and in order to achieve it, it's almost more nerve-wracking this time around.  What if it doesn't work at all?  Will I endure months, years of stress like last time?  What if I never get pregnant again?

All I know is that I am so, so blessed to have what I have in my little boy, but our family is not yet complete.  I am praying for one more miracle.

Stay tuned, ladies... 2WW is right around the corner...


  1. Ugh. I hate the 2ww!!! Hope it goes by quickly, yeah right. And I hope you have fun trying to catch that egg! ;)

  2. I SOOOO get it!! And trying month after month is just so exhausting. The good news is you've gotten pregnant before, so you stand a great chance of it happening again! I pray it happens for you soon!

  3. Keeping my fingers crossed for you this month!

  4. I hope you have a short wait for your second! I'm working myself up for returning to my clinic. So very, very hard!

  5. Yuck, boo the 2ww, but at least you get to have one, thank goodness for Clomid!!!

  6. I am so glad that your little man is helping you this time! Wishing you the best and I will be keeping my fingers crossed for a quick 2ww and great news in the end!!