The Journey to a Little One to Call Our Own

One gal's experiences dealing with IF, pregnancy, the birth of our first son, parenthood, and doing it all over again with our second son... here is our journey.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Ever Have the Feeling that Something is About to Happen?

Things could not be much better for us right now. I am not bragging. Trust me, I am not one to toot my own horn of how great my life is. But it finally, after years of this achingly long process, feels like things are falling into place.

House - well on the way to finding our final landing spot.
Our Family - excited about our little one. Everyone's happy and healthy.
Our Friends - ditto.
Mr. D - the cutest dad-to-be I know... he loves, loves, loves the fact that we're expecting.
Job - I am likely getting promoted in the next week as I am named to a newly-formed team for a brand-new corporate initiative.
Baby - growing and right on track.

Ever have the feeling that just too many good things are happening at once and something is bound to fall? I told Mr. D last night, "things just couldn't be much better for us... I hope nothing goes badly," and he shot me a look of don't-even-think-that-way. I know I shouldn't think pessimistically. I just feel so happy, content, and blessed... after all of the IF crap we dealt with in 2010, I am overwhelmingly thankful that everything seems to be at peace. Life is good.

So... for my recap of Monday's Dr. appointment. Dr. C went over our NT results... everything looks normal! We were measuring 2 days ahead of schedule, but she wanted to keep my due date at August 13. We listened to the heartbeat, which was WAY louder and more prominent than last Dr. appointment when we heard it on the Doppler. My uterus has moved up, closer to my belly button, so I had a split second of the oh-no-this-is-it-the-baby-isn't alive-anymore thought when she couldn't find the heartbeat. But when she moved the instrument about an inch up my stomach, there it was. :) It's such a glorious sound :) Heartbeat was in the 140s.

I asked her about my rate of miscarriage. As any good Dr. would say, she can't guarantee that I won't miscarry again. But, she thinks my chances are less than 1%. I shared with her that I think about miscarrying every single day... usually multiple times. And, of course, there is nothing she can do about that. But she tried to reassure me that chances are "extremely likely" that we will have a live child. If we lose the baby, it's not due to something that I do or don't do... it's because of a reason that is totally out of my control. And that's what I continue to pray for... strength to know that God is ultimately in charge of this plan, and we have to move forward with preparing for what is "extremely likely" to happen... welcoming our baby to the world.

Hope everyone's having a good week... I have some blogs to catch up on this evening!

Mrs. D


  1. If there's one thing that infertility teaches you it's that there is no rhym or reason to good luck or bad luck. So just because things are all going so well, don't think that means something bad is about to happen! Try to enjoy the good (yeah - not advice I'm good at taking!).

    Congratualtions on all the exciting things happening in your life right now!

  2. i am so sure it is difficult to not think about the bottom dropping out, but really, i think it is your time.... enjoy every minute of it!! you deserve it!

  3. Congrats on the great follow-up appointment with the doc. I know that moment of angst before seeing/hearing the heartbeat but I'm so glad that it all went well.

    I wanted to let you know that I nomiated you for an award! I started reading during this past ICLW and am enjoying following along!

  4. Sounds like a great appointment. Congrats :)

  5. Great news, congrats on everything!

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