The Journey to a Little One to Call Our Own

One gal's experiences dealing with IF, pregnancy, the birth of our first son, parenthood, and doing it all over again with our second son... here is our journey.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Do You Ever Forget About It?

I'm 7 DPO. How the hell did that happen?

I barely remember BDing last week, what day of week I had my HSG, and the daily monitoring of CBFM every morning... let alone having my period this month. All of these things are so cyclical, as if it's a part of this larger, timed out process, and I can't believe it's almost been a month since I had my last AF. Damn, time is flying.

I've been so preoccupied with this whole house thing, that this month has been out-of-sorts for us. It's kind of been nice on the TTC front, though - makes things easier when the time flies and I'm not thinking about how-many-days-until-I-can-grab-one-of-my-HPTs-and-pee-on-it-and-pray-for-a-positive. Instead, for the first time in over a year, I am thinking, "Holy shit... I am almost due to start testing. I hope it's a positive." I sure hope it's a good thing that I've been overly-relaxed about TTC this time around.

But the thoughts of "it" never go away. "It" refers to TTC, the struggle, reminders, and sad feelings that come with being infertile. I never really completely forgot about it this month... not even for a day... and I know I never will. Sure, my TTC thoughts most recently aren't all-consuming of my every waking moment, but I sure can't forget about the road we're on.

1 comment:

  1. I don't think so..... I don't think the thoughts ever go away. We are on a break, and it feels so go to actually not be trying right now, but i still think about it...every single day.
    I am happy the month is flying by for you, and the 2WW has not been torture :D
    Best of luck to you and Mr. D.... I am thinking sticky thoughts for you!!